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the emotional disaster of september 30
thought about if laura marling or foals was gonna show up to this concert
assumed the time on the ticket was the door time. it wasn’t. showed up 15 minutes into marika hackman’s set. she sings like an angel.
quickly realized in the interval that i was one of the few people in my immediate vicinity not there on a date or at least with a group of friends. sadlaughed to myself.
dry the river were a bunch of inexplicably hot mountain men
more interval angst about being by myself, hahaha, great
mystery jets came on and i was immediately overwhelmed with emotion i didn’t anticipate
second song was “serotonin” and i almost cried because i usually listen to that song when i’m sad and it was played so happily and i was so happy
they sang “young love” and i was so excited because i used to be a 13 year old girl in los angeles playing that song on repeat just to myself because no one knew who i was talking about and as they played it i was by myself but other people were so excited too and instead i was 19 and in london which is exactly what i’ve always wanted
all of a sudden, i see laura marling pop up out of nowhere to sing her part of the song and i cried and i tried to sing along but my voice cracked and i couldn’t handle it
during the next song of the set i turned around and saw alisha from misfits just in the crowd and i lost it again because she is so beautiful and i loved that show so much and she was just there and she looked so happy and i was so happy
whirlpool of emotions lasted the whole set and i wasn’t ready but the other day i lost a boy who liked the same music as me and i have loved this band for so long and i love laura more than most people that i couldn’t help it
during the interval i just sat in awe and shaking and then i turned around and saw members of foals, the same ones i saw last week but instead they were just there and i love them so much
i didn’t even have any emotions left for johnny flynn’s set, i just stared and watched and him playing the trumpet was the most beautiful thing of all time
laura returned to sing “the water” with him and i was not okay
mystery jets, laura, and marika all came out to sing “tickle me pink” as the closing song and i lost my shit because it was all these people i have loved for so long and i was already an emotional disaster
after it ended i saw the members of foals and was overcome with who knows what because i made a beeline for the exit so that i could “accidentally” walk next to them on the way out and even if i didn’t say anything i was gonna be there
but then i found it in myself to talk to jimmy because i must have been possessed, otherwise i would not have done it
i told him sorry, but i recognized him and just wanted to tell him i loved his music, and he said thanks, and we talked about the show, and i was so nervous, i was so nervous and i almost started to cry as we talked because i was already emotional and i literally couldn’t handle talking to him but he was so nice and i am sure this happens to him every so often (but not as much as it probably happens to yannis) but something came over me
he asked if i was coming to the lexington, which is where the after party apparently was, and i died because i couldn’t handle this knowledge
he asked my name and we parted ways and i shook the entire walk out because i am a overly emotional and nervous american girl who just talked to a member of her favorite band
decided against my better judgement to see if the party was actually at the lexington and walked there and got catcalled/whatever at least 4 times just on the way because it was midnight and i was alone and i was already a mess so i was not okay
i get there, i saw one of the mystery jets go in, proceed to freak out, still a disaster from the show and everything else that happened, couldn’t bring it in myself to go inside because i was alone and already almost having a panic attack and i can’t function around people but then the whole band left so i was okay with leaving
still, best concert of my life, probably