孤僻的人不该是具有抵御欺骗的特质么，为什么我会被欺骗？

是因为我孤僻，我一意孤行，我天真的想当然，还是因为卑微躯体下在挣扎的渴望？
人蠢不能怪社会，哈哈哈！然而知道被骗的时候一心感觉不是愤怒，感觉心里面像被掏空一般，连晚饭都寡然无味。像老爹说的吃亏是福一样，这种幸福却是一步步不再相信别人的难受交换而来。虽然损失不大不小，被骗了8张毛主席，简直如同心里打翻了调味盒一样，五味陈杂。
愚者丧财货，亦非自为己。愚者贪财货，自没沟为狱。如是贪无利，当知从痴生。愚为此害贤，首领分于地。

I am in denial, and I am depressed
I will try to bargain with you, then share my anger with you
I struggle with acceptance
I can't forgive myself
Everything I touch turns to gold, then to coal
Everything I touch turns to rust, then to dust
My clothes are full of holes, hanging off my tired body
But I feel such powerlessness, when I struggle with forgiveness
Yet I don't know my own strength, when I destroy everything
Woe, oh
I am in denial, and I am depressed