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意映卿卿如晤,吾今以此书与汝永别矣!吾作此书时,尚是世中一人;汝看此书时,吾已成为阴间一鬼。吾作此书,泪珠和笔墨齐下,不能竟书而欲搁笔,又恐汝不察吾衷,谓吾忍舍汝而死,谓吾不知汝之不欲吾死也,故遂忍悲为汝言之。
吾至爱汝,即此爱汝一念,使吾勇就死也。吾自遇汝以来,常愿天下有情人都成眷属;然遍地腥云,满街狼犬,称心快意,几家能彀?司马春衫,吾不能学太上之忘情也。语云:仁者“老吾老,以及人之老;幼吾幼,以及人之幼”。吾充吾爱汝之心,助天下人爱其所爱,所以敢先汝而死,不顾汝也。汝体吾此心,于啼泣之余,亦以天下人为念,当亦乐牺牲吾身与汝身之福利,为天下人谋永福也。汝其勿悲!
汝忆否?四五年前某夕,吾尝语曰:“与使吾先死也,无宁汝先而死。”汝初闻言而怒,后经吾婉解,虽不谓吾言为是,而亦无词相答。吾之意盖谓以汝之弱,必不能禁失吾之悲,吾先死留苦与汝,吾心不忍,故宁请汝先死,吾担悲也。嗟夫!谁知吾卒先汝而死乎?吾真真不能忘汝也!回忆后街之屋,入门穿廊,过前后厅,又三四折,有小厅,厅旁一室,为吾与汝双栖之所。初婚三四个月,适冬之望日前后,窗外疏梅筛月影,依稀掩映;吾与(汝)并肩携手,低低切切,何事不语?何情不诉?及今思之,空余泪痕。又回忆六七年前,吾之逃家复归也,汝泣告我:“望今后有远行,必以告妾,妾愿随君行。”吾亦既许汝矣。前十余日回家,即欲乘便以此行之事语汝,及与汝相对,又不能启口,且以汝之有身也,更恐不胜悲,故惟日日呼酒买醉。嗟夫!当时余心之悲,盖不能以寸管形容之。
吾诚愿与汝相守以死,第以今日事势观之,天灾可以死,盗贼可以死,瓜分之日可以死,奸官污吏虐民可以死,吾辈处今日之中国,国中无地无时不可以死,到那时使吾眼睁睁看汝死,或使汝眼睁睁看我死,吾能之乎?抑汝能之乎?即可不死,而离散不相见,徒使两地眼成穿而骨化石,试问古来几曾见破镜能重圆?则较死为苦也,将奈之何?今日吾与汝幸双健。天下人不当死而死与不愿离而离者,不可数计,钟情如我辈者,能忍之乎?此吾所以敢率性就死不顾汝也。吾今死无余憾,国事成不成自有同志者在。依新已五岁,转眼成人,汝其善抚之,使之肖我。汝腹中之物,吾疑其女也,女必像汝,吾心甚慰。或又是男,则亦教其以父志为志,则我死后尚有二意洞在也。甚幸,甚幸!吾家后日当甚贫,贫无所苦,清静过日而已。
吾今与汝无言矣。吾居九泉之下遥闻汝哭声,当哭相和也。吾平日不信有鬼,今则又望其真有。今人又言心电感应有道,吾亦望其言是实,则吾之死,吾灵尚依依旁汝也,汝不必以无侣悲。
吾平生未尝以吾所志语汝,是吾不是处;然语之,又恐汝日日为吾担忧。吾牺牲百死而不辞,而使汝担忧,的的非吾所忍。吾爱汝至,所以为汝谋者惟恐未尽。
汝幸而偶我,又何不幸而生今日中国!吾幸而得汝,又何不幸而生今日之中国!卒不忍独善其身。嗟夫!巾短情长,所未尽者,尚有万千,汝可以模拟得之。吾今不能见汝矣!汝不能舍吾,其时时于梦中得我乎!一恸!辛未三月廿六夜四鼓,意洞手书。
家中诸母皆通文,有不解处,望请其指教,当尽吾意为幸。


IP属地:山西来自Android客户端89楼2020-12-21 16:12
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    每日好歌
    gold rush (Explicit)——Taylor Swift


    IP属地:山西来自Android客户端90楼2020-12-21 16:56
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      IP属地:山西来自Android客户端91楼2020-12-21 16:57
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        作者批注
        本文来自林党民的《与妻书》
        个人觉得最喜欢的一句就是:常原有情人都成眷属


        IP属地:山西来自Android客户端92楼2020-12-21 16:59
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          我和你男和女 都逃不过爱情
          谁愿意有勇气 不顾一切付出真心
          你说的不只你 还包括我自己
          该不该再继续 该不该有回忆
          让爱一步一步靠近 我对你有一点动心
          却如此害怕看你的眼睛
          有那么一点点动心 一点点迟疑
          不敢相信我的情不自禁 我对你有一点动心
          不知结果是悲伤还是喜
          有那么一点点动心 一点点迟疑
          害怕爱过以后还要失去 难以抗拒 Oh
          人最怕就是动了情
          虽然不想不看也不听 却陷入爱里
          我和你男和女 都逃不过爱情
          谁愿意有勇气 不顾一切付出真心
          你说的不只你 还包括我自己
          该不该再继续 该不该有回忆
          让爱一步一步靠近 我对你有一点动心
          却如此害怕看你的眼睛
          有那么一点点动心 一点点迟疑
          不敢相信我的情不自禁 我对你有一点动心
          不知结果是悲伤还是喜
          有那么一点点动心 一点点迟疑
          害怕爱过以后还要失去 难以抗拒 Oh
          人最怕就是动了情
          虽然不想不看也不听 却陷入爱里
          我和你 男和女都逃不过爱情
          也许应该放心 让爱一步步靠近


          IP属地:山西来自Android客户端94楼2020-12-26 08:28
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            作者批注
            歌词来自有点动心
            @丶暧昧成殤 @💖Ada💖 @武林独行者 @吖啊啊啊好 @巨火塔的并非青骑士


            IP属地:山西来自Android客户端95楼2020-12-26 08:29
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              每日好歌
              有点动心——张信哲


              IP属地:山西来自Android客户端96楼2020-12-26 08:30
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                Gorgeous
                You should take it as a compliment
                That I got drunk and made fun of the way you talk
                You should think about the consequence
                Of your magnetic field being a little too strong
                And I got a boyfriend he's older than us
                He's in the club doing I don't know what
                You're so cool it makes me hate you so much
                I hate you so much
                Whiskey on ice sunset and vine
                You've ruined my life by not being mine
                You're so gorgeous
                I can't say anything to your face
                'Cause look at your face
                And I'm so furious
                At you for making me feel this way
                But what can I say
                You're gorgeous
                You should take it as a compliment
                That I'm talking to everyone here but you
                But you but you
                And you should think about the consequence
                Of you touching my hand in a darkened room
                Dark room dark room
                If you've got a girlfriend I'm jealous of her
                But if you're single that's honestly worse
                'Cause you're so gorgeous it actually hurts
                Honey it hurts
                Ocean blue eyes looking in mine
                I feel like I might sink and drown and die
                You're so gorgeous
                I can't say anything to your face
                To your face
                'Cause look at your face
                Look at your face
                And I'm so furious
                At you for making me feel this way
                Feel this way
                But what can I say
                You're gorgeous
                You make me so happy it turns back to sad yeah
                There's nothing I hate more than what I can't have
                You are so gorgeous it makes me so mad
                You make me so happy it turns back to sad yeah
                There's nothing I hate more than what I can't have
                Guess I'll just stumble on home to my cats
                Alone unless you wanna come along
                You're so gorgeous
                I can't say anything to your face
                To your face
                'Cause look at your face
                Look at your face
                And I'm so furious
                At you for making me feel this way
                Feel this way
                But what can I say
                I say
                You're gorgeous


                IP属地:山西来自Android客户端97楼2021-01-04 18:59
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                  歌词来自部分gorgeous的


                  IP属地:山西来自Android客户端98楼2021-01-04 19:00
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                    IP属地:山西来自Android客户端99楼2021-01-04 19:00
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                      每日好歌
                      Gorgeous——Taylor Swift


                      IP属地:山西来自Android客户端100楼2021-01-04 19:01
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                        搬运2000阅读了谢谢各位


                        IP属地:山西来自Android客户端101楼2021-01-09 13:34
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                          歌词来自King of my heart——Taylor Swift


                          IP属地:山西来自Android客户端103楼2021-01-17 11:58
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                            被吞了?好,再来一次


                            IP属地:山西来自Android客户端104楼2021-01-17 11:59
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                              IP属地:山西来自Android客户端106楼2021-01-17 11:59
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